This morning I am running on empty, to be honest. I was up late, up again in the middle of the night, and then up early with the girls. I'm struggling to find a balance between being a full time mom during the day, and an actor at night. My husband is extremely supportive and does so much for me, the kids, and the house-- but when I am home the kids want me. I get it. I feel guilty that I have been working so much the past month, so when I'm home I try to do lots of activities with them, take them out places, and cook and clean as much as I can. However, being on stage takes a tremendous amount of energy. It's different from a desk job, or even retail (which I did for a year while we lived in Ottawa). I feel like a heel saying that, but it's true. Performing is like putting 100% of your daily energy into a two hour period. It's intense. In order to maintain that (not to mention keep my voice healthy) I need to sleep. I just can't do it on 6 or 7 hours a night. I know, I sound like a princess, right? I just know myself, and my craft, and what it takes to keep myself in top form.
Anyway, I'm just going to have so catch a cat nap this afternoon. I'm sure that will help!
Enough complaining...on to the layouts!
Catherine from Scrapbook and Cards Today sent me some beautiful Crate Paper products to work with-- perfect for my girls! I had time between shows on Wednesday so I scrapped in blissful peace and quiet!
Like a lot of scrapookers, I'm addicted to Instagram on my iphone. (It's free, and they print off well!) The girls and I were playing around in the backyard and I thought I'd get them down on a layout ASAP!
I also thought the retro style of this line would go well on a layout about my show. I used the packaging from the "Flea Market Buttons" as a background for my photos. I just used a sticker and some patterned paper to cover the writing:
The journaling here is very true and expresses my last month well. It's always good to do something that is scary. You learn so much about yourself. You learn how strong you really are.
Off to the dollar store today, and maybe the Jazz Fest for a hour in the afternoon-- it's right outside our front door!
Don't feel like a heel. You know yourself better then anyone. Hell, I've been saying for 4 years I need more than 5 or 6 hours a night and I'm still not getting it. Fragmented sleep is the #1 cause of irritability. That's my favorite new quote and I'll be using it until "someone" in my house figures out that Mothers shouldn't be doing all the work.
Posted by: Jen | July 23, 2011 at 09:19 PM
And PS, I really want to see you preform one day. bet your awesome!
Posted by: Jen | July 23, 2011 at 09:20 PM
Love how you rocked the Crate! And I'm totally trying that banana loaf from the post below--looks terrific!
Posted by: Keshet | July 25, 2011 at 07:05 PM
Totally understand, and someday your girls will get it, too. Just hang in there. I know they must be proud of their mommy!
Posted by: Robyn Schaub | July 26, 2011 at 10:06 PM
Lisa, just wanted to say...well, I'm not sure what, other than sending some empathy your way. It IS hard to balance being a mom with your other life goals. I always thought "when _____ happens" i won't feel so stressed (potty training, weaning, school, whatever). But honestly, it doesn't really get easier. Better, yes, but easier, not so much. What changes is your ability to cope with stuff, to see what REALLY needs your attention and what can wait. You just have to keep trying for that balance. Sometimes you find it!
Anyway, not sure if that makes sense, but I wanted you to know that it is OK to feel overwhelmed and stressed. Hang in there! I bet you're awesome in your play!
Posted by: AmySo | July 27, 2011 at 06:05 PM