Today I am 35 years and 11 months old. As a kid, 35 seems very old. Although I am very satisfied with my life, I'm not exactly where I thought I would be as a kid.
- When I was nine, I was convinced I was going to be a famous movie star. I wrote in my diary with a mind that it would (obviously) be read by millions one day...even going so far as to define the word "Blackout" as "power outage" for future generations who might be living on some other power source. I was thinking ahead.
- When I was about 15, I figured that I would have three children when I was 25, 27 and 29, respectively, thereby being done with procreating in my 20's. (In reality, I had two kids at 32 and 34, and I was still the first of my high school girlfriends to have a baby.)
- In high school, I distinctly remember counting out how old I would be for New Years Eve 1999, and deciding that 25 was still young enough to party. (Not that I party. I was never a partier. I spent that night at a house party, and not a very entertaining one at that. I think most people found that New Year's a little anti-climactic.)
- I remember in my 20's many of my colleagues were horrified that I was born in the 1970s. I was the baby of the cast then. In my last show, I had a (rather flirtatious) colleague born in 1990. Nineteen-ninety! Sheesh.
Still, even though I am not exactly where I imagined I'd be, I am thrilled to be in my little pocket of the world with my hubby, my kiddos, my dog, and my washer and dryer in my dining room. I'm also happy that I live near family and friends. I can't imagine living far from home.
I remember something like this going around the blog world a while ago:
- last year I was still breastfeeding, and wondering if I'd ever start working again.
- 5 years ago I was living in Toronto, probably starting rehearsals for "Anne of Green Gables" at Stage West.
- 10 years ago I was rehearsing the "Mamma Mia" musical at an old church-turned-rehearsal space in the west end, wondering if the show would be a success.
- 15 years ago I was finishing up my second year of university at Queen's, likely bleary-eyed studying for exams and doped up on too much orange pekoe tea.
- 20 years ago I was in Grade 10 in the drama program at an Arts high school, realizing with each passing day how much I wanted to be a performer.
- I took Lily in the pool for her first swimming lesson, while Audrey took her first "big girl" swimming lesson, and Quillan sat on the bleachers.
- I wished that we had Nutella in the house, but then was glad we didn't because I knew I'd eat the whole thing one spoonful at a time.
- I groaned every time I went up to the third floor, my muscles sore from pilates yesterday.
- I received two packages from scrapbook manufacturers and felt giddy that I get paid to scrapbook.
- I made chicken and baked french fries for dinner, with sliced cucumber on the side. I mouthed a silent "thank you" heavenward that they both ate it all without complaint.
- I took a shower with the two girls for the first time. Lily sat in the bottom and splashed in the water, while Audrey wanted to hold the nozzle.
- I read "Olive, the Other Reindeer" before bed, because Christmas books are just as good in April as they are in December.
- I stopped on my way out of their bedroom to hear Audrey tell me she loves me.
- I collapsed on the couch with a glass of wine, a handful of chocolate chips, and my laptop.
- When I sign off here I will go wash my face and put on Oil of Olay to stop the 7 Signs of Aging. I may even get crazy and pluck my eyebrows.
Life. Is. Good.